if i told you the truth, would you even believe me? would you believe me if said that i've been in mourning ever since the night it happened? would you believe me if i said that my mind is a tangled up mess. with no time to rest, i've been wearing black attire and scattering ashes in my head for the person i was beforehand. would you believe me or would you turn me away if i say that i regret every decision i ever made? could you believe that i haven't felt like myself in years, that i've cried a thousand tears over somewhere i thought i would belong in. I thought the pieces would fall into place but everything has been in disarray, would you believe me when i say that i've put up a masquerade for so long that i don't remember who i was. would you believe it if i said that after all this damage, i still carry hope in my heart for what comes next.